When everything feels wrong

I am hating the idea of migrating to Sydney. At another time in the future, I might be okay with it, but not now, yet everyone tells me to go. Everyone I talk to tell me life will be better there. There will be better opportunities, etc. Only one person told me if I didn't want to go, I don't have to. I hate how people think if in their opinion Australia is good, it must be good for everyone else too. Nobody considers my opinion.

I will be 30 in a couple of years' time. I had a dream of being a qualified actuary by 26. I am nowhere near achieving that dream. I really cannot do it on my own. It is too tough. I need to be tutored. I don't have the job I want and I keep failing actuarial interviews. The person who gets the job is always someone with the right citizenship status (although obviously this will never be mentioned) or someone with more working experience. Who on earth will ever hire me for a junior role? I will soon be 30 and with crushed dreams.

I am moving to a country where I have no job, no place to stay, no friends, NOTHING!!! How 'exciting'.

I can normally think positively in such situations but it has been more than half a year now and I still am unable to do so. For more than half a year this step has felt wrong and it still feels wrong.

It feels like death.

On a lighter note, try watching The Mindy Project. I think it is a show we can all relate to cause we have done it or are probably doing it. It is interesting in my opinion. Trust me and watch it! ^_^